there's no one in the world like emily!

cheap_trick76 @ 2006-01-08T13:25:00

2006-01-08T18:26:42Z

i think i can honestly say i hate evrythig right now.. and ive been pissed off for abot 2 straight weeks now and im fucking sick of it. life just sucks anymore. so fuck everything.

holidays suck

2006-01-01T20:30:41Z

christmas was good.. got basically all i wanted except the camera i asked for. the gmom got me a coach bag i will never use and uggs that i cant stand cause uggs are just ugly altogether. other than that i got everything i asked and i like it all.

new years on the other hand could have been better. i dont really want to get into anything but my relationship almost ended with 7 and a half months because of a text message i dont remember getting. but well just say bruce didnt like it and we fought all night until we basically fell asleep. i just cant take fighting anymore.. its starting to piss me off and im always in a mood anymore.. i just want to hang out with friends.. so PLEASE CALL ME AND SAVE ME.. one day is all i ask.

thats probably what i need cuase i havent seen friends in forever. i need just one day away from everything and do what i used to do.. absolutly nothing wih friends. CALL ME!! lol. but i gotta go get showered cause its finally free and get ready to go to uncle toms house. bye!

i hate everything right now.

cheap_trick76 @ 2005-12-12T23:19:00

2005-12-13T04:20:29Z

in love..

cheap_trick76 @ 2005-09-29T16:17:00

2005-09-29T20:22:32Z

Im in need of some friends..

anyone wanna be my friend?

i miss all my old friends from like sophomore and junior year.

i wish i could have them back.

but thats enough of my complaining and all.

so bye.

cheap_trick76 @ 2005-07-06T10:52:00

2005-07-06T14:54:17Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!

cheap_trick76 @ 2005-06-24T23:54:00

2005-06-25T04:03:35Z

so schools done with and its like a week into summer vacation.

nothing really excitings been happenening at all.

i work and when im not at work im usually with bruce or with the ocassional drew.

i went with bruce and his family to the beach for a few days earlier this week and it couldve went better.

we got in a fight the first day we were there and didnt really talk to eachother for a bit but were better now.

i miss him but im going down possibly tuesday with jimmy for the day cause im off.

im sick to and it sucks.. i hate being sick.

i came home from work early cause i was so out of it.

i was suppost to go to the pool with janine before work today but when she got here i started shaking and was in alot of pain so i stayed home.

alot of things have been on my mind lately that have been bothering me... like i just find myself thinking about everything and just randomly crying.. and i hate crying.

everyone should be proud of me to.. its been over a month and a half wihtout smoking.

spring trip to be exact was the last time i smoked. im proud of myself.

this has been pretty pointless so im guess im done... ill write some more later.

bye!

cheap_trick76 @ 2005-05-16T22:49:00

2005-05-17T02:52:13Z

weekend was fun.. ill update about that later.

i hate my dad. hes an ass.

nothing is going good and i feel horrible for my mom.

im tired of crying and tired of seeing her cry.

i luv bruce though cause hes helped alot.

its nice to know i have some poeple like him and twin that will listen to my prblems.

but i dont want to write anymore now so ill write about everything else later.

bye.

cheap_trick76 @ 2005-05-08T22:39:00

2005-05-09T02:39:34Z

You can ask me any 5 questions
no matter how personal,
inappropriate, or random.

I promise to answer the
questions 100% truthfullly.

cheap_trick76 @ 2005-04-22T15:21:00

2005-04-22T19:23:31Z

i want to get really drunk really bad.

since i cant go to the beach house anymore after prom i need to find new plans.

hmm i should get working on that.

i also need to go up to work and tell theresa the days i need off before she makes the schedule.

other then that everythings good.

ooh except i hurt my wrist.. and it pops basically everytime i move it.

cheap_trick76 @ 2005-04-10T22:11:00

2005-04-11T02:11:30Z

Post an anonymous comment telling me something you would NEVER tell me if i knew it was you.

cheap_trick76 @ 2005-04-05T21:25:00

2005-04-06T01:26:02Z

i need a date from prom since lisa and janine insist on me going so badly.

so someone should go with me cause you guys love me oh so much.

other then those things life is great right now.

except for school but thats easy to fix.

ok im done avoiding my history paper so im going now. bye!

cheap_trick76 @ 2005-03-29T12:16:00

2005-03-29T17:18:37Z

i hate when people tell you to smile when your unhappy.

if i hear it one more fucking time im going to scream.

cheap_trick76 @ 2005-03-27T20:06:00

2005-03-28T01:23:23Z

my favorite skirt is to big now.
thats sad but also a good thing i guess.
sad cause its to big nad it was my favorite one..
but good cause that means im losing weight.

so breaks been ok.. nothing to exciting.

--thursday night--
i worked till 8. janine and lisa siad they were oging to come visit but i knew that wasnt happening so i wasnt suprised when they didnt show. matty g was oging to come up but got the times i was there mixed up.. he though i went in at 8 but i really was done then. next time matt! i dont even rememeber what i did after that. ooh.. i made plans with a friend but then fell asleep before i went out and didnt wake up in time. lol so i slept thursday night i guess.

--friday--
i sat around for a majority of the day.. didnt even get changed till around 7.
then people came over around 8 maybe and we had a good ol' time.
we smoked a whole bunch and a few of us drank.
people went out though around 1130 to get people and pick stuff up but came back unitl like forever.. i went to bed at 3 and people were still here so who knows when they left.

--saturday--
i slept most of the day.
had work 5-8.. it wasnt that bad. we had parties of 6-11 the entire night though so we were making mad ice cream the whole time. deven picked me up cause shes a good friend like that. we went to the show and it wasnt that eventful.. saw lee and talked to her for a few minutes. but then i was avioded by somebody else and have no reason to be.. who cares if there gonna be shady like that and just stop talking to me then whatev.

--today--
i woke up at 6am and i dont know why. its like the clock it 6 and i was wide awake.
so i layed in my bed staring at the ceiling for 2 hours until i fell back asleep until 1030 when my uncle came to get wil and jake so they could go to virginia. so it was just me and mom home. we went to her friends friends house. it was kindve akward cause i didnt know anybody and my mom kept leaving me.. so i sat in the kitchen by myself most of the night. came home around 630 and could have gone out but couldnt cause mom didnt want me to. not that big of a deal.

see.. nothing exciting like i said.
tomorrow and tuesday i work 5-9 but i might do stuff afterwards.
work completely ruined my break cuase i only had one day off but i dont care cause it gave me something to do.
but i guess im done now so bye.

cheap_trick76 @ 2005-03-03T20:12:00

2005-03-04T01:14:12Z

I GOT A JOB!! WOO HOO IM NOT GOING TO BE POOR ANYMORE.

ill be working at the friendlys in cinniminson but i dont know when i start yet.

cheap_trick76 @ 2005-02-24T22:08:00

2005-02-25T03:20:21Z

my house officially sucks.

there's nothing what so ever to eat.

its forever cold in my house cause its so old and the windows need to be fixed.

and so many other things that i dont even feel like going on about.

i stayed home from school today cause i woke up feeling like crap.

i think the kid i sit next to 7th period wears diapers.

he smells like a little kid.. if you now what i mean by that.

i cleaned my room and found 50 dollars so im not poor afterall, but its going in the bank.

laura keeps telling me i have to go to the ffb show tomorrow so i guess i am.

i have money now so i guess i can.

dads still an ass and im ready to call him up and curse him out.

he called me to go sledding today but it was only cause he had the bitches little kid with him and was going to take him.

asshole.. im glad hes gone.

he said he could get me a job at friendlys or hathoways but still hasnt called me back about that.

who cares, i dont want anything from him.

i hope it keeps snowing..even tho i hate snow.. just cause i want to take out the quad.

i want summer to just be here already cause i hate jeans and i hate being cold.

ooh, i think im going to quit smoking and drinking for a while.. well after this weeekend.

only because i really have to start paying more attention in school and i might be playing softball.

im still not sure about prom or anything still.

really not to into the dance thing cause i dont have anyone to go with and dont feel going.

im down for the beach afterwards though cause deven talked me back into it.

lol who knows though still.

ok im done i guess cuase i have to get a shower just incase we do have school tomorrow.

so.. bye!

cheap_trick76 @ 2005-02-21T17:15:00

2005-02-21T22:19:47Z

havent been in the best mood lately.

i dont want to go to prom.

and i dont want to go to the beach house afterwards anymore.

i just dont want to do anything.

im doing horrible in school.

my attention span is like non-exsistant.

i think my last convesation with my mom consisted of me saying what and huh after everything she said.

nothing is going good anymore.

who cares.. im done complaining about life.

and ms haines is a bitch that gives out to much work. i still have my research essay to write so i guess ill go do that now.

W O U L D Y O U R A T H E R . . .
1) pierce your nose or tongue?: tongue
2) be serious or be funny?: funny
3) drink whole or skim milk?: 1%

A R E Y O U . . .
4) simple or complicated?: simple
D O Y O U P R E F E R . . .
5) flowers or angels?: flowers
6) grey or gray?: Gray.
7) color or black-and-white photos?: black and white
8) lust or love?: love
9) sunrise or sunset?: Sunset
10) M&Ms or Skittles?: skittles
11) rap or rock?: Rock.
12) staying up late or waking up early?: Staying up late.
13) TV or radio?: radio
15) eating apples or oranges?: i love both.. but usually eat apples more

A N S W E R T R U T H F U L L Y . . .
16) Do you have a crush?: Yup
17) Who is it?: bruce.. i think everyone knows that tho

D O Y O U P R E F E R . . .
18) being hot or cold?: Hot.
19) tall for people you're interested in?: just atleast as tall as me
20) sun or moon?: moon cause i love the night time
21) emeralds or rubies?: rubies
22) left or right?: Right.
23) having 10 acquaintances or 1 best friend: 1 best friend
24) sun or rain?: sun
25) vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream?: vanilla
27) green beans or carrots?: carrots
28) low fat or fat free?: low fat

M I S C E L L A N E O U S . . .
29) What is your biggest fear in the world?: heights.
30) Kids or no kids?: kids.
31) Cat or dog?: both.
32) Half empty or half full?: half empty
33) Mustard or ketchup?: ketchup.
34) Hard cover books or soft cover books?: soft
35) Newspaper or magazine?: magazines.
36) Sandals or sneakers?: scandals.
37) Wonder or amazement?: amazment
38) Red car or white car?: red
39) Happy and poor or sad and rich?: happy and poor.. its been working my whole life why change now.
40) Singing or dancing?: dancing
41) Hugging or kissing?: i alwyas love a hug but both are good.
42) Corduroy or plain?: Plain.
43) Happy or sad?: happy
45) Blondes, brunettes?: blondes

A B O U T Y O U . . .
What time is it?: 8:04
Nicknames: em emmie
Names of siblings and age?: Wil, 18 Jake, 12
Date that you regularly blow out candles?: July 6th
Pets?: charlie and kitty
Height?: 5'6''
Eye color?: blue
Hair color?: strawberry blonde
Piercing(s): down to 8

W H A T D O Y O U W A N T.
Where do you want to live?: country somewheres.. i want to have horses lol.
What kind of job do you want?: who knows.
Do you want to get married?: yes.

W H I C H I S B E T T E R . . .
2 doors or 4 (on a car)?: 4
Coffee or ice cream?: ice cream
Shampoo or conditioner?: conditioner.
Bridges or tunnels?: tunnels.
One pillow or two?: a lot

*. . .F A V O R I T E S . . . *
Salad dressing?: ceaser
Color of socks?: white.
Food?: salad and hoagies
color?: pink and green
Non-alcoholic drink? water or ice tea

cheap_trick76 @ 2005-02-21T11:37:00

2005-02-21T16:38:02Z

Popularity Kills!-This is soo sad! and depressing just be nice and give some one a hug or smile today!

Dear Diary

They told me that I was the ugliest thing they'd ever seen, and i started to cry.

I went home and Jake called me.

I thought the day would get better.

But he told me that long distance relationships dont work out.

He lived in California, and I moved to Michigan.

Then I told him I loved him and that I missed him.

He told me that the only reason he ever went out with me was because was a joke, and he was

dared to.

Then he dumped me.

We were going out for two and a half years!

November 9,1999

Today got a little better.

I miss jake so much you dont even know diary!!!!

But he even changed his number so I wouldn't call him.

But the most hottest guy at school asked me to the dance!

And those prissy girls that said im ugly let me hang out with them at lunch today.

It was cool!!

November 10,1999

I'm crying right now... turns out that hot guy was a jerk at the dance he poured his punch on me,

and those girls ripped my dress and everyone started laughing.

Then my grandma told me today that mom and dad got in a little car accident today at work.

They're in critical condition, they might die.

I can't write anymore.

November 11, 1999

Todays a saturday... but me and grandma were at the hospital all night long.

Dad died this morning.

Mom is going to live, but she's crippled for her life.

I wanna die too.

while we were at the hospital grandma found out that she had cancer in her stomach.

She has to go on chemo-therapy.

I cant believe daddy died.

I'm crying more then I have my whole life.

I'm in shock.

I cant write...I'm too tired.

I need sleep.

November 12

Daddy is not dead!

He can't be!

Its all a dream.

My life is perfect.

Jake still loves me.

I can barely write.

I'm crying too much.

I wanna die.

Take me.

Bye...

One day later, Lisa was found dead in her basement.

She had hung herself with a yellow rope.

I am her mother.

My name is Maranda Gonzalez.

The reason I wrote this e-mail to all of you, is because no one else deserves what my daughter had.

Please remember that everyone needs love.

Everyone needs a hug everyday.

No one should be made fun of, or insulted.

No one deserves to die like Lisa did.

All of you please dont be the popular prissy girls that put other people down to make themselves feel better!

Please dont be the awful posessed date for the dance that makes people cry.

Now please do me the honor of sending this to as many people as you can think of.

So that way everyone will know not to be a jerk.

Thank you.

cheap_trick76 @ 2005-02-04T18:44:00

2005-02-04T23:45:45Z

If you took the $160,000 you
would spend on college and
spent it on condoms ($.83 each),
you could have sex 132 times a
day, or 5.5 times an hour. If
that sounds excessive, you could
have sex 3 times a day, buy a keg
per day, a Cadillac Escalade, and
still have $11.85 left over for
weed every day for 4 years...why
the FUCK are we all going to college?!?!?

cheap_trick76 @ 2005-02-03T00:13:00

2005-02-03T05:15:29Z

I have kissed someone:

on the cheek.
on the lips.
on their hands or fingers.
in my room. in their room.
of the same sex. well they kissed me lol
of the opposite sex.
younger than me.
older than me.
with jet black hair.
with curly hair.
with blonde hair & blue eyes.
with flaming red hair.
with straight hair.
shorter than me.
taller than me.
with a lip ring.
who was drunk.
who was high.
who I had just met.
who was homosexual.
who I didn't really want to kiss.
on a holiday.
who was going out with someone else.
who was going out with someone close to me.
who was my good friend's brother or sister.
who had been/is in jail.
in a graveyard.
at a show/concert.
at the beach.
in a pool, jacuzzi, or some type of water
who was legally too young/old for me to have sex with.
with dyed hair.
with a shaved head.
who was/is my good friend.
who was/is in a band.
who has tattoos.
who is of a completely different race than me.
in the rain.
in another continent besides where I was born.
with an accent.
with an std.
on a boat. in a car/taxi/bus.
on a plane.
at the circus/carnival.
with a missing body part.
in the movies.
eskimo style.

lol but thanks for the comments on my last entry. i dont know.. maybe ill get it but i need to get money first. lol. if i get a job though i most likely wont get it because most jobs dont like peircings and such. but nothing new has been happening lately. matty g keeps talling me im depressed.. i think hes smoking something lol i mean really.. do i seem like the depressed type?! ok dont answer that. dads making me go with him to the wingbowl on friday.. yup im gonna die. as of right now i dont have anyone to go with me so if you wanna go just call me. but i can already tell nobody is gonna wanna go with me so i think im gonna have to call my cousin tasha. who knows.. but ive been thinking about prom and i really dont wanna go. i just wanna go down the shore afterwards. im going to my gammies beach house and having a nonstop party alllll weekend! i cant wait. i think im taking aj cause he wants to go and i dont really feel like finding and asking someone else. but who cares hes cool so its all good. but im still desiding lol and i probably will be until like the day of prom haha cause thats just how i am... but its like midnight and i need to go dry my hair so i can go to sleep. bye!

cheap_trick76 @ 2005-01-31T14:31:00

2005-01-31T19:34:43Z

lol nobodys taking me seriously... i swear as soon as i get money im getting that done. i mean really who else do you know that has that done?!

cheap_trick76 @ 2005-01-30T00:57:00

2005-01-30T06:06:46Z

i dont really like this weekend.

friday was ok but it oculd've been alittle better.
went to janines house and drank some. nothing to exciting.
couldnt find a ride home but then aj showed up so it was all good again.
came home at like 2 to mom being asleep so it was good.

today i didnt wake up at 230.
it was pretty much a waste of a day.
i didnt go to either show cause im poor.
i wanted to go to the highschool on but good i didnt cause i heard it was bad.
so i sat at home by myself until around 9 when mom came home and janine finally called.
went over there and did the same thing i was doing here... sitting and not talking.
but im home now and getting ready to go lay in bed.

tomorrow i think i have to go out with the father but i really dont want to.
mom said we have to start going to church more cause we havent been having the best luck lately.
she says it should help. lol so i guess im gonna wake up early and go there.
after that i think dad wants me to either go to his "house" or out to dinner.
i think, if i have to go at all, ill go out to dinner cause i dont ever wanna see that lady.
but yea i think im done.. goodnite.

Who wants to go to the wing bowl with me on friday? cause i dont wanna go with just my dad.

oh and i blanked out again today. this was the 6th time in the past month. its getting me really scared. i think i should tell mom about this so i can go to the doctors and get it checked out.

cheap_trick76 @ 2005-01-23T00:52:00

2005-01-23T05:53:39Z

it was an eventful day.

went sledding with many people.

then cam ehome and had hott chocolate.

then was supost to go to pennsauken pool to go sledding more but me and deven ended up down the street.

i fell into devens peer pressure and ended up a tad tipsy.

then sat around some more until i had to go home.

came home and now im here.

i found out i talk about the most random stuff when i drink. it was crayz tonite. lol.

cheap_trick76 @ 2005-01-18T21:18:00

2005-01-19T02:16:31Z

"Slipped Away"

Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh

Na na na na na na na

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

Oooooh
I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same
Ooooh

I had my wake up
Won't you wake up
I keep asking why
And I can't take it
It wasn't fake
It happened, you passed by

Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now your gone, now your gone
There you go, there you go,
Somewhere your not coming back

The day you slipped away
Was the day i found it won't be the same noo..
The day you slipped away
Was the day that i found it won't be the same oooh...

Na na, na na na, na na
I miss you

cheap_trick76 @ 2005-01-14T17:41:00

2005-01-14T22:42:43Z

Rest In Peace George Weill.
You will be greatly missed.

cheap_trick76 @ 2005-01-05T22:52:00

2005-01-06T03:52:26Z

Take the quiz: "Which drug is best for you?"

ectacy
pop a couple of these and hit the raves. the next day you will the mourges newest friend